had a weird drm today... lolz. drmt of lots of ppl. drm tt mom n dad smiled n tok to each other... lolz. weird..
felt tt its weird cux its been so many yrs since i have seen them smile n tok to each other ba... suddenly missed those tyms.. haiz. so pathetic. i sound like those childish little kids... =.='' bt sumtyms i reali envy thse ppl whose parents are stil together..
for e.g. my frens families are goin to their graduation during the graduation day.. bt my parents are nt goin.. altho im the one who told them nt to go.. bt the reason y i dunwan them to go is cux i knw tt bth of them cant b present at the same place at the same tym.. smth bad is sure gonna happen n evry1 will b unhappy..
haiz.. bt wad can i do sia.. feelin v sianz... bt oh well. its jux a ceremony.. nth much.. =x
well.. back to my drm.. i drm of tt sum1 again.. -.-'' its been so long since i drmt of tt person.. was abit surprised. tt person was tokin on the phone.. n din notice me even tho i was jux in frnt.. dots..
i have been tinking.. altho its fun n swt to have a r/s bt it doesn't last long... n its dam tiring.. n it may hurt in the end...so mayb its beta to b single all my life?to be free frm all the tiring tings.. to have fun..
hmm.. im saying all tis is mayb cux i haven met the rite person ba... or mayb i have met tt person le, bt i let it slip away?or mayb its due to the real life examples of lousy r/s tt made mi lose hope of finding the rite person in my life..
*talking rubbish* =_='''
wadeva............ jux trying to live day by day...
thinkin' of you at ... 12:12 PM
today is sooooooooooooo cool n fun!!! haha.. cux i finally met cheryl n pyro for the 1st tym in real life! haha. went to lot 1 to meet dem wif qi bt i was late ><. haha, lucky they are kind enuf nt to kill mi. lolz. wen we 1st met, was so awkward. haha.. bt soon gt lots of tings to tok le. hahaha.. turns out tt they are oso v lame de.. so its v v fun. haha.. cheryl is reali small sia. lol.. like the wind cud blow her away anitym like tt. den the way she dress is like too mature for her age liao. lol.. gers these days reali knw hw to make up le... nt bad nt bad.
den pyro is ok lookin tho. den the way he laugh is funny.. his action is v v big de. den can tok lots of crap oso. haha. aft goin to lot1, cheryl went home n the rest of us went to orchad to eat dinner.
at orchad, evry restuarant is like full hse sia.. we walked frm far east to taka den to cineleisure den gt tings to eat. lol.. aft tt went to taka for ice cream.its super nice la... lol. den aft tt go home le.. so tired.
reali glad to knw all these ppl.. had great fun today. ^^
oh, n we took neo print! haha.. so funny. cux mst of the neo print oni gt half of our faces lol..wheee
thinkin' of you at ... 10:07 AM
went ah xia hse to visit her n sq today ^^ so long din see them le.. haha.. den sq so big liao. bt v v v v adorable sia. ahaha.. den carry her til my hands nw numb liao n no strength le. lolz.
played dai dee the whole day oso. haha.
nw lazy to type liao.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz so sianz
thinkin' of you at ... 11:21 AM
yay.. today was fun.. lolz. went to fren's hse to play. haha.. played fatal frame2 n omg, tt game is super scary la.. the ghost will come out of no whr de. n the graphics is v gd oso.. v impressive. haha. hope tonite i wil have no nitemares. ><
hmm.. i tink sumtings happenin to my leg.. its nearly completely numb le.. =.='' i tink tis tym sumting bad is gonna happen... haiz. abit scared nw.. sianz
thinkin' of you at ... 9:40 AM
rarw! today i finaly exploded le. -.-' was reali angry at sum1. wow.. den was abit shocked abt myself. lolz. cux din knw i wil b tis angry n im capable of feelin tis way.. haha.. reali v long din felt so angry liao..
lol.. finally discovered another ting tt wil make mi so pissed.. -.-''
bt its dam tiring to b so angry.. haiz. hope i did scold sum sense into tt person..
tiring day... haiz.. reali felt drained..
thinkin' of you at ... 9:37 AM
ok.. yesterday's nonsense has con't to today..
been doin nth much today.. so sianz..
today, u ask mi abt wad i felt abt tis ytd's crap situation. wad can i say to u? i can oni say i dun care.. its ur business n im tired of concerning liao..
n u say since i saw wad happen so u feel tt u owe mi an explanation?!?! tts BULLSHIT.
so tt means if ytd i din hapen to see, u will keep quiet 4eva? or keep quiet til smth happens? stop tellin mi u owe mi an explaination jux cux I SAW EVRYTING. tts so irritating.cux if u reali tot tt u owe mi an explaination, u wud have told mi abt tt ting n explain y to mi long tym agao.. grr, tis totally piss mi off..n nw i duno whether to trust u anymre...
come to tink of it, no wonder u wana knw whr i will b goin.. so u can cary out ur plan..
FREAK, i hate my life nw..evrytings SCREWED.
n today, another IDIOT came n tok to mi abt STUPID STUFF!! WALAU!
so,wad u mean 'if i die, den dun come n acknowledge me?' FREAKING ASS idiot.. u knw i wun wad, so u said tt jux to get my attention n sympathy?!?! if tts so, den u havta try harder. cux its getting ZERO sympathy frm mi. reali wanted to call u to fuck off, bt i cant.grr.. mayb 1 day i wil juz explode.. haiz..
im so tired... i hope i can jux slp 4eva n dun wake up to see all tis kind of nonsense.. =_=''
im gettin mre vulgar le.. bt heck la.. its so sian nw.. n i learnt tt being a gd guy is useless.. ppl will jux try to tke advantage..
yes.. alone is gd..
*i don't control ur life, so u beta NOT CONTROL MINE! get it?!
thinkin' of you at ... 11:23 AM
shuo bu shang wei shen me
wo bian de hen zhu dong
ruo ai shang yi ge ren
shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
wo xiang da sheng xuan bu
dui ni yi yi bu she
lian ge bi lin ju dou
cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou
he bian de feng
zai chui zhe tou fa piao dong
qian zhe ni de shou
yi zhen mo ming gan dong
wo xiang dai ni
hui wo de wai po jia
yi qi kan zhe ri luo
yi zhi dao wo men dou shui zhao
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
wo
xiang dai ni qi dan che
wo
xiang he ni kan bang qiu
xiang zhe yang mei dan you
chang zhe ge
yi zhi zou
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
ni
kao zhe wo de jian bangnizai wo xiong kou shui zhao
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo
wo ai ni
ni ai wo
xiang
jian! jian! dan! dan!
ai~
xiangjian! jian! dan! dan!
ai~
-by jay chow jian dan ai
[Translation]"Simple Love"
Unable to say why
I have become very initiative
If I fall in love with a person
Anything is worth going to do
I want to loudly announce
I am reluctant to part with you
Even the next-door neighbour can guess my present feeling
The riverside wind
Is blowing my hair to waft
Holding your hand
A period of unknown emotional moving
I want to take you back to my maternal grandmother’s house
Watching the sunset together
Straight until we are sleeping
I want to be holding your hand like this and not let go
Can love be pure forever without sorrow?
IWant to take you bicycle riding
IWant to watch baseball with you
Want to be like this without worries
Singing songs
Constantly walking
I want to be holding your hand like this and not let go
Can love be simple without hurt?
YouAre leaning on my shoulder
YouAre sleeping on my chest
Like this kind of life
I love youYou love me
WantSimple!Love~WantSimple!Love~
thinkin' of you at ... 11:06 AM
haiz.. today is weird.. went out bt 4gt to take my wallet.. so in the end havta go home n take it, den go out again.. so 4gtful. lolz. ate gelato today. lol.stil gt other tings tt hapened bt too lazy to write le..
hmm,i saw smth which i shud nt see today.. felt VERY weird n abit disgusted.. haiz.. den nw cant get tt image out of my head le.. dots..
haiz, i knw evry1 gt their needs.. bt sum hw i juz cant get over it.. its looks super wrng.. omg.. feel like getting amnesia IMMEDIATELY RITE NW!!! haiz.. so sianz.. n i stil feel sick.. yucks man.. omg omg omg.. the tings tt i wud nvr n cant imagine happen in my life, happened rite b4 my eyes today.. omg..
$%#%$%&^$%#@#%U&^(&*)%^#@$$#$$%&%^%R%............. -.-'''''''''' reali no wrds can describe sia.. n stil mux act nth happened.. eeeewwwww
eeee, tink i wil lose my appetitde for a few days.. lol..
so sick n tired... haiz
thinkin' of you at ... 12:32 PM
yay.. finally the last day of attachment is over le.. haiz. duno whether to be hapi or sad.. =x
hapi is cuz i finally grad liao.. n i have a long hols in frnt of mi.^^
sad is cuz i wil nt go back to sch animre.. n nw i havta wrk le.. n i will mis my frens.cuz wen we wrk, all will b v v v busy to come out le.. n i wil nt see my new frens so often oso le =( oh well...
lol,den today we made a present for out CI(clinical instructor), lol.. n wen she see it, she like goin to cry liao.n our present is nt like those super fancy kind of ting.. lolz.. bt shes the best CI i eva seen. lolz.=p
reali enjoyed my posting, even tho there are politics ard, bt i tink its normal.. n find it no big deal tho..made lots of new n interestin frens.. reali will miss u all de.. cux its due to them, tt i liked my posting.. hmm, so weird, stil cant believe i grad le.. n im no mre a 'student nurse' nw, im a staff nurse liao. hahahaz....if i eva wana b one.. ><
no mre sch le.. nw waitin to go army.. goin tru another new phrase of my life.. hmm.. wonder wad will hapen.. feelin abit scared abt my future bt oso excited too. lolz. complicated.
hmm,disscussed afew tings today.. among them was "hw do u tink if sum1 treated u well?" some ppl say its money. e.g, if tt person spend lots of money on u tt means tt person is v gd to u.. bt i dun agree leh.. =x cuz even tho tt person may spend thousands of money on u, bt tt person stil makes u unhappy or hurt den its bad liao.. n if tt person who spends money on u, expects u to be gd to him/her, den its another bad person.. tt is a shythead.
man.. a part of me doesn't want tis attachment to end.. hope tt it cud last 4eva.. lol.. i mux b mad =s
mayb i will find wrk to do while waitin for ns... hmm.. any lobangs? any1? lol. if have den leave a comment ba. lol =p
gd bye... i wil mis these moments...
*off to another chapter of my life.....*
thinkin' of you at ... 11:43 AM
hapi labour day!! ^^ haha. had a nice drm today.. den din wana wake up. lolz. hope tt drm can last foreva.. -.-
din do much today, so sianzz
smth irritating happen today, dam irritated. tt sumbdy keep on banging ourdoor.. grr.. den open le, stil threaten to commit suicide?!?! WTF.
I REALI HATE THOSE PPL WHO KEEP ON SAYIN TT THEY WANA COMIT SUICIDE! ITS SO FUCKING IRRITATING CAN?!?! ALTHO I LOVE U, BT IF U SAY TT, I WIL STIL FUCKIN B V PISSED. U TINK U SO GREAT?!? GET LOST.. RAWR.
ok.tink i will go to hell wen i die for sayin those tings -.-
OH WELL
*i dunwana b sumbdy who can na de qi fang bu xia, i shall b on my own nw le.. best is dun start anything nw. =x alone is always goot.. at least i wun b hurt.... yeah
thinkin' of you at ... 9:54 AM
wasiansia
cars, games, bowling, comics(hopes to open one comic shop one day), frens, sch, n tings tt can make mi laugh..
..blah blah blah
n almost anything tt is blue!!
backstabbers, lIfE n myself
21.8.1986
been called siao, dao, lame, sian.. n etc.. lolz
now on my way to becoming the pro in slacking!!!
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