i told myself not to get too affected by u, not to contact u, not to care about u, not to think about u..
all of these are hard to accomplish, but it is working.. little by little, im able to forget about you.
pls cont to treat me as a stranger to make it easier for me.
hai..
i said all of these, but y am i hurting inside?? hai..fuck.
thinkin' of you at ... 1:07 PM
hi blog, im emo again today..
hai, y do i like some1 so easily de.. its like im desperate or smth. i hate it.
today made me realised that i did not change at all over this years, im still the same old kelvinson from back then. the same old boring me.
to like some1 whom u know u cant be together with is so sian!!!!
im jus a boring, no money and emo guy. this is so pathetic.
to the person : pls do not be too nice to me.. it would jus make me like u more.
life was so simple till i met u again, but i nvr regret meeting u again.
just read from my prev post dated 3 yrs ago ( i loved u once... so y cant i love u once mre? ) haha... now it shud be (i loved u twice.. n twice failed, y the 3rd time? can i love u again?)
thinkin' of you at ... 10:26 AM
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...... WTF AM I DOING?!?!
AM I FEELING JEALOUS?! WTF ISIT FOR.
zzzzz...regret what i did this afternoon.. nearly lost control of myself. fucks
dam.. i must learn to control.. must nt fall into it again. sigh..
must endure.. it is not meant to be.. think properly first.. think think think.
damn..the cycle is starting to repeat itself again.. omg..
thinkin' of you at ... 10:30 AM
hai.. y is this happening???
y am i feeling guilty of what i sad???
y r u able to affect my feelings and moods again??
y r u able to take over my heart again with so little effort after such a long time?
y am i at this state despite trying to avoid it all this time?
y do i like u when i know i cant and u would leave me again??
y y y y y y y????
the ans is.. i haven learnt to let u go.. damn.
thinkin' of you at ... 9:25 AM
it has been more than 2 years...
my heart still race when i think of you,
my mind only think about you,
i still cant take my eyes off you,
but i still cant say 'i love you'..
i dun knw whether to be sad or happy when you say that you would want to help me to confess to the girl i love..
im happy because u r concerned about me and wanted to help me
im sad because you are unable to help me..
the reason is because that girl whom i love is you and i already know your ans..
thinkin' of you at ... 10:36 AM
hai.. somehw im feeling emo again.. its been a long week and its only wednesday!!! dam tiring. sian. Labels: * troubled random tots..*
heard tat u r gonna be goin to another place soon and i cant see u so often anymore..hai. its gonna be so boring w/o u there. (=_=) no motivation anymore.
u said that u would wan to laugh softer or try not to laugh becuz of xing xiang but i feel tat the best music in the world is ur laughter and tat is the kind of person tat u r.so no nid to hide it.
i wish i could help to take away the pain and trouble u r feeling, i feel so helpless and it hurts me when i see u getting troubled and im unable to help.
its so hard to treat u only as a fren when i knw my feelings for u is much more than that.. there are so many times when i wan to tell u hw i feel but i cant, cuz i alrdy knw wad u are gonna say. hai
i wonder hw long is this gonna carry on.. maybe JUST MAYBE, one day i would have the courage to risk it all and tell u hw i feel. but right now, wad i cud do is to do my best to make u happy and tat is wad i wana do. seeing u smile and be happy is worth every effort i make.
thinkin' of you at ... 5:59 AM
recieved the best bdae present today. haha
i haf found the drm ger tat u mentioned.. shes you.. lol
thinkin' of you at ... 11:29 AM
wasiansia
cars, games, bowling, comics(hopes to open one comic shop one day), frens, sch, n tings tt can make mi laugh..
..blah blah blah
n almost anything tt is blue!!
backstabbers, lIfE n myself
21.8.1986
been called siao, dao, lame, sian.. n etc.. lolz
now on my way to becoming the pro in slacking!!!
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